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Sherman,

This is a great poem.

It stuns me with its depth.

Emerson describes in The Poet

how it feels to be near

a real poet

as he writes.

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Thank you, Deborah.

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From the BlueWolves to Sherman and Michael

Terminal

Trading her bright skirts

and fancy shawl

for a thin, no-back, hospital gown

was hard enough

but to feel her full black braids

thin to balding--

broke her heart.

Feeble fingers tugged at mine,

"Promise you won't let me suffer."

She accepted my lie easily, knowing

that this trail

through these mountains--

is all about pain.

This enemy

doesn't bugle its charge to finish us.

It grows unseen,

a tiny flowering throb

that blooms into unbearable.

She presses the button

to pump that angel of relief

into her flattened vein.

All my poems of peace and passing

can not salve the fester of these hours.

We hold hands, sing for release,

balance our grief on a teetering faith

and wait for suffering's end.

Today, at sunrise, she welcomed peace.

Her face smoothed at the change of worlds.

I stayed behind, feeling the weight,

but stars did not wink out

nor birds forget their song.

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I am moved to tears

by your intensely loving elegy

every word expresses

your honor

thank you for standing by her

the way I would want

if it were me

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Yakoke, Deborah And for taking time to comment....

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I’m so sorry about your father, Michael.

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So beautiful, Sherman.

And maybe you have a bad back.

And maybe you are not as strong anymore.

And maybe so many years have past.

But these words carry your father

and the memory of him

to a place where he shines.

I wish that in a far away future, decades after my death, my children can carry me still in that way.

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Beautiful.

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Thank you, Arjan, such a lovely response.

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I enjoy hearing you speak your work. Your voice lends much to the evocative power of your words.

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Thank you!

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Beautiful, touching poem, Sherman.

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Thank you, Shari.

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Damn. Life being lifey . . .

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Yup

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Gorgeous poem: vulnerable, honest, bare. You cast me back to "Those Winter Sundays"

Those Winter Sundays

Sundays too my father got up early

and put his clothes on the blueblack cold,

then with cracked hands that ached

from labor in the weekday weather made

banked fires blaze. No one ever thanked him.

I’d wake and hear the cold splintering, breaking.

When the rooms were warm, he’d call,

and slowly I would rise and dress,

fearing the chronic angers of that house,

Speaking indifferently to him,

who had driven out the cold

and polished my good shoes as well.

What did I know, what did I know

of love’s austere and lonely offices?

—Robert Hayden

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That's one of my very favorite poems.

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So hard to "like" a poem like this one, or Mohr's essay on his father, but yes. Last night at our table during the monthly meeting of the Clearwater Fly Casters a lady who'd just turned 70 talked of how different that felt to her from when she turned 60. Then she said she didn't like the Lewiston Tribune because "there are so many obituaries in it." Of course, Georgia & I had to mention how it felt to have turned 80--quite "different" indeed--wasn't 70 just "advanced middle age"? Ahh, the obituaries!

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❤️

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Yeah, my sisters send me obits of people in our tribe. In a decade, I'll be among the oldest men.

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I couldn't agree more about the Like option. It seems so inappropriate at times

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Beautiful poem, really touching.

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Thank you,

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Beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing. I know beings of light who left on a passing wind.

"What happened to the part of you who noticed every changing wind? " Jason Isbell, 24 Frames

https://youtu.be/0_bItCISCSY

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Ah, Jason Isbell. I love him and I love Amanda Shires' music, as well.

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When I posted this song I was sure I could have come up with more appropriate songs but something resonated with Isbell’s line. Good music for certain.

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Beautiful and beautifully read. Thank you.

Happy Thursday, for reals!

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Thank you, Derek.

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This is so moving, Sherman. For some reason it reminded me of a couple of things concerning Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, who brought Transcendental Meditation to the west. He always said that when someone dies, they haven't gone, they're just a little way ahead on the other side of a bridge, where you can't see them. But when he was shown a film clip of his guru, he played it over and over again, all the while saying "There you are". I take great solace from this.

I was also reminded of a Jewish proverb that I've mentioned before: When a father helps his son, both laugh; when a son helps his father, both cry.

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Oh, wow, now you put tears in my eyes.

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Oh, sorry Sherman.

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I like to cry!

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Ah. Glad to have been of service! Well, it is both cleansing and cathartic.

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Very moved by this, beyond words

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Thank you, David.

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Knock it off, Sherman. Planet Fitness is only $10/month. I think I was there yesterday. Trying to get my son to join. Myself, I'm on a beer regimen.

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Ha!

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So beautiful. You are so fortunate not to have been estranged from your father . . . I hate to think of you, basketball playing/loving Sherman, with a bad back . . . are you still able to play at BHS?

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I retired at age 50 then came back in January 2022 and kept injuring myself. So, yeah, I'm done with hoops.

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Thanks, Sherman, for touching our hearts with your words.

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Thank you, Roger.

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