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Kelly M.'s avatar

I wish there was a colloquial term for obsessive-compulsive disorder that better captured its realities. Anyway, thanks always for your writing on mental health. I first found your poems as a very depressed teenager over a decade ago and they brought me some solace and company. They still bring me solace and company now.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Kelly. I'm happy my words provide some solace.

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Phil Jackson's avatar

Absolutely. And now you point it out, you're right. The "C" sound does surprise. 😮 It is better. My apologies.

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Phil Jackson's avatar

In the written poem above the stanza reads:

Depression is a relentless

clock, collapsed. Depression is

is a compass, confused.

But in the audio you say:

Depression is a relentless

clock, stopped. Depression is

is a compass, spinning.

I'm not sure which you intended (I prefer the audio version), but I thought you might want to know. (I should have differently, not incorrectly. Sorry.)

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Ah, yes, I rewrote the poem. I prefer the new verbs. They repeat the "c" sound and I think they're a little more surprising. Thanks for noticing the change!

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Phil Jackson's avatar

This is excellent. It captures the hope in hopelessness.

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Pennie R. S. Nelson's avatar

Very real and intense. I too struggle with depression and a few other mental illnesses. From one day to the next I'm not sure how I'm going to feel. Very good poem and you read it very well too Sherman.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Pennie. I wish you strength when you're in you darrkest times.

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Pennie R. S. Nelson's avatar

Thank you Sherman, much appreciated.

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Caren Z's avatar

Wait, I want to say more. My post pandemic (don't read particularly well) senior high school students announced in class that the two Indians bantering in "Crazy Horse Dreams" provided them a first opportunity to comprehend gender stereotypes actually worked in their world. No small thing.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Ah, wow, that poem is so long. I wrote it when I was 21! So great to hear it continues to have meaning.

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Caren Z's avatar

Mr. Alexie, I think your work will/should be understood within context of "significant American writers." It's that good.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you.

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Caren Z's avatar

Really like this piece, especially liked what it takes to survive as an Indian pilgrim/pioneer, the contradiction.

Powerful

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you!

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Steve Lovelace's avatar

Your words, as always, profoundly affect me. I myself have no words, thank you Sherman.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Steve.

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Sara Morin's avatar

Awe Beautiful, best wishes.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Sara.

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Kate Bradley's avatar

Stunning. I've printed it out to read when I wake at 3 am and need reassurance there is enough spirit in the world to hold me. Thanks.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Kate.

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Jillian Hess's avatar

I’ve read this poem 5x and I’m going to come back 5 more times. Exquisitely honest!

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you for the kind words. Jillian.

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MARK PAWLAK's avatar

Very powerful, very moving.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Mark.

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Charles Obscure's avatar

Transcendent work, Sir, which models a familiarity of the affliction I do not wish upon anyone. Mine has proven to be readily managed over the years since finally diagnosed, but I see so many whom may never be delivered that I tremble in gratitude. This poem gives recognition (several instances/entire stanzas) and life-affirming hope, which demands struggle to render so keenly. I salute you!

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Charles. Therapy and prescribed medicine greatly helps me.

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Charles Obscure's avatar

I am glad to hear that. Plenty of writer friends battle with those "noonday demons". I expect you know a few. I sometimes feel as if the muse likes to extract a price. Be well.

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Nolan Green's avatar

A beautiful poem, sir.

For me, depression doesn’t fade or turn things to gray. It’’s vivid and that is terrifying. It’s a reminder of how ridiculously miraculous life can be. So beautiful that it hurts deeply—nausea. That piece of music just knocked me to my knees. I choose to feel, it cuts, but I will not give in. I choose to live.

Thank you for your words.

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Nolan. I wish you strenth in you struggles.

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Nolan Green's avatar

I'm good, thank you Sherman. I want to stick around for as long as possible just to see how this whole crazy thing plays out!

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Same as me!

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Karen Helland Tate's avatar

Listening through my tears. So beautiful and sad. Thank you Sherman

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Karen.

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Rick Schmidt's avatar

Another great and important work Sherman. Is there an entire/long book on depression/handbook to surviving...in your future? No one gives hope quite like U!

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Sherman Alexie's avatar

Thank you, Rick. I don't think I'd write a book like that. I've mentioned it elsewhere in these comments. One of the best books about living with depression is Andrew Solomon's The Noonday Demon. https://andrewsolomon.com/books/the-noonday-demon/

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