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I don't have bipolar but somehow what you say about it resonates so much with me.

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And with cannibalistic ferocity, you still survive.

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I’ve was diagnosed as bi-polar

also, its really not in control

Of self, Sometimes thinking I could do anything and then plunging to darkness, hiding in my room. Something I wanted to ignore, never share.

My wonderful husband didn’t understand but stayed with the bucking bronco I was.

Now i am an elder who marvels that I survived the horror of it all. 🙏

Thank you for writing, sharing. I keep benefiting from it all.

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Nov 29, 2023Liked by Sherman Alexie

I’m so happy you are still among us and writing your heart out. Love you.

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Nov 27, 2023Liked by Sherman Alexie

To survive bipolar disorder is an accomplishment. Only those living with this understand this. You’ve done well

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Oh, wow. This is so powerful. You know, your vulnerability is such a superpower.

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Meds suck. They work until they don’t. I can never know how much I need to work on myself versus how much (and how long) to accept and rely on meds. I addictively rode the ND Pride bandwagon straight out of a solid relationship. What to do now? Can hardly make decisions for myself but don’t like listening to others. Tough spot.

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.. i have some info for you .. re your basketball ethos

think it might not please you much..

where ‘sportsmanship’ entered the picture - ?

a complete mystery .. yet basketball is a game

last I looked ..

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glad you resurrected it from the archive; poignant description of what it was like for you that I can viscerally grasp and it has a great last line.

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Goddamned beautiful essay. Thank you.

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Nov 26, 2023·edited Nov 26, 2023Liked by Sherman Alexie

Reading from my bed, fully clothed (though not in basketball gear) and yes, struck with paralyzing bipolar depression after summoning the hypomania to make it through the back to back to back thanksgivings I had lined up for me this year.

I’m glad you resurrected this from the archives.

Euthymia is such a fuzzy, sun-bleached mood. I know the rue that accompanies it. But its merits are obvious when the recoil from mania’s high energy kicks you to the edge of quitting literally everything.

I think I can shower now though. Thanks! Maybe that’ll start the upswing back toward balance.

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Your writing of your bipolar life always touches me. Maybe once before I shared of having two daughters, now in their 50s, that live with bipolar. Everyone has their own experience with whatever ails them, but your bold out there writing helps me to know my girls in a deeper way. Keep the archives open!

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The mirror we look into as we get older can be frightening and enlightening. Frightening in that I wonder how any of us have survived. Enlightening because the will to survive for whatever our reasons are so monumental. A powerful and heart wrenching story of what you have and continue to go through and (as always) with just enough of your brilliant humor for levitation.

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Nov 26, 2023Liked by Sherman Alexie

To be able to share this anguish and acknowledge your fury is profound. I wish my father had had that kind of epiphany. He too, was a bipolar basketball player. He used his mania/fury on crazy schemes and deleting our family resources.

Thank you, once again, for insight into bipolarity. I find I can love the flawed man my father was, a bit more.

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Thank you for this poignant, brutiful honesty.

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Check out on You Tube: NAMI Ask the Experts: Advancements in Research & Treatment,it's really worth it

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